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to quit, I certainly ought to want to, and that I was
willing to do anything in the world to stop drinking.
I was willing to admit to myself that I had hit bot­
tom, that I had gotten hold of something that I didn’t
know how to handle by myself. So after reviewing
these things and realizing what liquor had cost me, I
went to this Higher Power that, to me, was God, with­
out any reservation, and admitted that I was com­
pletely powerless over alcohol and that I was willing
to do anything in the world to get rid of the problem.
In fact, I admitted that from then on I was willing to
let God take over instead of me. Each day I would
try to find out what His will was and try to follow
that, rather than trying to get Him to always agree
that the things I thought up for myself were the things
best for me. So, when they came back, I told them.
One of the fellows, I think it was Doc, said, “Well,
you want to quit?” I said, “Yes, Doc, I would like to
quit, at least for five, six, or eight months, until I get
things straightened up, and begin to get the respect of
my wife and some other people back, and get my
finances fixed up and so on.” And they both laughed
very heartily and said, “That’s better than you’ve been
doing, isn’t it?” Which of course was true. They said,
“We’ve got some bad news for you. It was bad news
for us, and it will probably be bad news for you.
Whether you quit six days, months, or years, if you go
out and take a drink or two, you’ll end up in this hos­
pital tied down, just like you have been in these past
six months. You are an alcoholic.” As far as I know
that was the first time I had ever paid any attention
to that word. I figured I was just a drunk. And they
said, “No, you have a disease, and it doesn’t make any