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more than once. It will not take long for you to de-
cide, if you are honest with yourself about it. It may
be worth a bad case of jitters if you get a full knowl-
edge of your condition.
Though there is no way of proving it, we believe
that early in our drinking careers most of us could
have stopped drinking. But the difficulty is that few
alcoholics have enough desire to stop while there is
yet time. We have heard of a few instances where
people, who showed definite signs of alcoholism, were
able to stop for a long period because of an overpow-
ering desire to do so. Here is one.
A man of thirty was doing a great deal of spree
drinking. He was very nervous in the morning after
these bouts and quieted himself with more liquor. He
was ambitious to succeed in business, but saw that he
would get nowhere if he drank at all. Once he started,
he had no control whatever. He made up his mind
that until he had been successful in business and had
retired, he would not touch another drop. An excep-
tional man, he remained bone dry for twenty-five
years and retired at the age of fifty-five, after a suc-
cessful and happy business career. Then he fell vic-
tim to a belief which practically every alcoholic has
—that his long period of sobriety and self-discipline
had qualified him to drink as other men. Out came his
carpet slippers and a bottle. In two months he was
in a hospital, puzzled and humiliated. He tried to
regulate his drinking for a while, making several trips
to the hospital meantime. Then, gathering all his
forces, he attempted to stop altogether and found he
could not. Every means of solving his problem which